i have many things i ponder...and like to turn over in my mind.
like, have i drifted so far away from my First Love; so much so that now i turn to the World for confirmation and hold a false sense of security in their opinion of me?
[this in isolation is entirely incorrect - i should be relying on my Lord and Saviour for confirmation; not the World].
2) 'I want to live in the Light
as You are in the Light...
I want to shine like the stars in the Heavens'
..sometimes I feel like i lead two lives...one of holiness and piety/
then, one of debauchery, drunkeness, and unrequited lust...this is who i do not want to be, yet i feel like i am forever bound to living this life of sin, no matter how hard i try to prise myself from this fallen life....
Lord; please help me to rid myself of this shamefulness; and to find rest and recovery in You....
